My girls are really getting into the spirit of Valentine's Day. Me, I've never felt very strongly about Heart Day. It was fun in grade school, there were lots of cards & candy, but it was
also stressful. I remember my 5
th grade teacher telling us that we had to bring Valentine's for every kid in the class. That was fine except for one boy in the class, David. I could not take the chance of him (or anyone else in my class) thinking I actually liked him by giving him a Valentine. It didn't matter that everyone in the class had to give him one and he had to get one for everyone else. I was in 5
th grade. I couldn't think that far outside myself. I spent the evening of February 13
th meticulously going through my box of valentines and choosing just the right card for each member of my class. I passed over David's name a few times, but I finally finished all the other children and had to pick one for him.
You're the apple of my eye. Um, no.
I love you. Ew, definitely not.
Let's be friends. No thank you.
We make a great pair. I'd rather die than tell him that. Or, more importantly, have anyone find out that I told him that.
I'd go out on a limb for you. Maybe. This one had potential. There were no hearts, no holding hands, just a picture of a Toucan. It just might work. I took a pen, added a few letters and the obligatory
to: David, from: Emily and put it in the envelope. When he opened it the next day he would read,
I wouldn't go out on a limb for you.
I am not proud of this story. It pretty much makes me sick to think about how this boy, with few friends anyway, would feel opening such a card on Valentine's Day, the one day of the year where everyone in the class had to be nice to him. He should have had a classroom full of friends that day, but I was afraid to let him even think that I liked him. I did not want to be his friend. Years went by before I considered his feelings. I had moved a few times before I realized how cruel that was. Ugh. I wish that I was telling this horrible story about someone else and not me. I still feel badly about it. I have been relieved to learn as a mother that now kids take Valentines to school with their name only on them, so they can pass them out quickly. My daughters, however, are not following that rule. They're personalizing their Valentines. Here's a conversation I had with Gwen yesterday:
Gwen: Mom, I have another friend that I like better than Emily.
(I don't know whether to be worried, shocked, or relieved, Gwen and Emily are inseparable and it's not always a good thing. You know how little girls can be.)
Me: Oh? Who's that?
Gwen: Seth.
(Oh! It's a boy!)
Gwen: Today he gave me a lot of smiles & I gave him smiles.
They are not in the same class, but apparently they smile at each other while waiting for the bus after school. Gwen told me, "It all started one day when I gave him a smile and he gave me a smile back. And that's how he became my best friend."
Then she asked me how to spell Seth, so she could give him the heart she made in art class.
Gwen's Valentine for Seth
Detail of Gwen's Valentine. She attempted to hide this lovey-dovey detail by awkwardly holding this corner of the picture when she showed it to me. Gwen & Seth, sitting in a heart.
Bethany has been working on a few special Valentines as well. The first one she made was for a boy in her class named Jessie who has glasses. It says, "When I was looking for a friend, I found you." The two o's in looking are eyeglasses. I'm not sure if she has special feelings for Jessie or if she just recognized the creative possibilities of his shortsightedness.
At least none of them wrote, I wouldn't go out on a limb for you.